Over a year ago, I wrote this on my first experience with DMT, Dimethyltryptamine. Revisiting it, it brings back the wonders of everything. How it all happened.
Last night, two very good friends and I decided to venture into the void.
It's a really odd mix, and to be honest I feel like this needs to be a little longer than it probably should, so I'm sorry for that if this drags on..
DMT entered my life a few years ago after hearing about it while reading Terence McKenna books, listening to Joe Rogan talk about it, etc, etc. When I heard about it, I had never done any kind of psychedelics in my life. After fruitlessly searching for it for months and months, I gave up.
I met my friends 8 months ago in the desert. We instantly hit it off, turns out that when we were 500 miles away we figured out we lived 100 yards away back in the city that we're from. We all started hanging out on a regular basis, and I introduced them to what DMT is via the same route that I found out. They were as interested as I was, but again a fruitless search warranted no yields.
Fast forward to March 1st, 2012. Both my friend and I who are the ones who really want to do this, both get text messages from long lost friends (different people) at almost the same time (one hour apart) saying they had DMT, and a way for us to get it.
March 2nd, 2012. We get the DMT, and with it we have new found nerves that we didnt have before haha, which is expected I'm sure.. We all get together that evening, and go to the closest liquor store to get a bottle to try and make a machine, liquor store stopped selling single shooters. We go to a headshop to get a bubble pipe, all 3 headshops are closed at 9pm on a Friday night.
I was feeling like this was a sign for us to wait another day.
Everything I was told had happened, you don't find DMT, DMT finds you, and you go with it.
March 3rd, 2012. A morning that yielded a very strange day.. my best friend's father died from a sudden heart attack, my girlfriend had one of the worst mornings of her life at work, a lot of random people I encountered throughout the day were just rude, and it was a very strange vibe kind of morning. Fast forward to the evening, my friends and I have everything we need to actually do this.
One of my friends, has a very dark past with burying things instead of dealing with them, and is out rightly nervous about doing this for fear of a dark, bad trip. After psyching himself up, and us telling him to just dive in, he goes. 3..2..1.. blast off 'I'm losing you guys...'
After 5-6 minutes, he comes back. With absolutely nothing but amazement and love. "That was AMAZING, there is absolutely NOTHING to be worried about, oh my god, I have never felt so much love and caring ever in my life.. there were.. arms, welcoming me and pointing into a portal, like, hey!! come here!! check this out!!'
None of us had enough of a dose to 'break through' but we all had enough to go for a deep swim.. about 33.3mg each.
My turn.. I'm nervous still, after the events of the day, I've never really done psychedelics before except 2 mild mushroom trips.
3..2..1.. Everything has turned into a Van Goh painting, then BAM! a wave of light crashes into it and everything explodes into colors. A galaxy, I get nervous, and then this presence in the galaxy notices me getting nervous, and I feel her take .. consideration of me being nervous? She says, 'don't worry, this is for you' and this glowing galaxy of rainbow colored light dances for me in the most seductive, loving, caring and most beautiful dance I've ever seen, then she takes my hand and we spiral into a portal, but as we were spiraling, we both kind of tell each other 'there's not enough to keep going' and she gently let me go as I came back to earth..
I'm going to try to elaborate a little more..
This galaxy was a full blown galaxy, tengral arms, spirals, there was nothing else it could have been in my head. I mentioned 'her, and she' a few times.. I had an OVERWHELMING feeling that this galaxy was an absolute feminine beautiful woman. She danced in a rhythmic vibration of the universe, hair (tengral arms) whipping around, I felt like it loved me for who I am and who I want to be.
Last friend is up
3..2..1.. He got transported to a city of light, being held in the hands of a giant woman who was giving him the energy of the universe, in the palms of her hand, presenting it to him. He said it was beautiful, so beautiful that he didn't want to leave.